Can I just say, something’s just sound better in Arabic. Like for instances, ما هو القدر؟؟ translating to ‘what is Qadr?’. For those of you who don’t already know, Qadr is the Arabic term for Pre-destination. And Predestination is, in fact, one of the Pillars of Faith in Islam. To sum up, God willed for us to have a will, and our will is a product of God; therefore, our will is secondary to that of God.
In any case, to my point. I wanna say, for the longest time I’ve had an Issue with Qadr. Like I wholeheartedly believed in the will of Allah, but when something I didn’t like happened, I would fight it only to accept it, eventually. This is who I was. I haven’t completely got rid of this terrible habit, but Alhamdulillah it’s the lowest it’s ever been. And Inshallah, I will live to eliminate it.
Anyways, recently, as I’ve become more accepting of Allahs’ Decree, simultaneously, I’ve become curious. Like ‘what does Allah have in store for me’ type of thing. Like: Where will I work? Where will I live? When will I die? Who will I choose to spend my life with, if granted the opportunity? Which goals will I achieve/accomplish? When/Where will I fail? Subhanallah and the thing is, the questions are endless like a flowing current. I look forward to my questions answered, and I understand Patience might just be the key. But in my head, to justify my chain of thoughts, if I had my questions answered, then guess what, less time would be wasted.
At the same time, I understand that I play a huge factor when it comes to my Qadr. So, a few days ago, I embarked on a journey. A journey I have embarked on before for reasons other than this. A journey in which, I mold myself into who I need to be. A journey in which, I get the ending of my choosing for my betterment through actions and intentions.
May Allah keep me steadfast on that which bring me closer to him and in doing so, I believe my hopes and dreams will be met. Inshallah.
Here to Change!! My Allah make me successful!!